I am 53 years old and nine years sober and for all of those years, I can honestly say; I have never wanted to be here, like this. It is a shape and form, that I am unfamiliar and uncomfortable with. I always perceived this physical existence to be a non-priority and what I was being programmed with, to be inaccurate!
What I was being told regarding why I was here, was a lie; one gigantic ruse. It was not the forms fault, it was just two forms presenting what the previous forms had given them for information, they did not know that they were potentially existing on and passing along lies.
When you think about coming out of the body of another, as being born alive, then every perception I have ever experienced as a physical form, has been a lie, but if you perceive coming out of another body, as dead, then every perception I have ever experienced as a physical form, has been “TRUTH”.
I was presented into this reality against my will and from my first breath, they told me I had life, but they lied. It was just one form, telling another form, they are alive. I was so small that, even if I could have sensed what was going on and decided to go back to the living, I could have never negated my physical presence, on my own!
I was forced into existence through a painful event. Seconds later I am in pain again; hunger pain, so I ate and drank and joined my tribe and If I would not eat, they would have force fed me. All of which would seem to be the humanitarian thing to do, if you thought that you were promoting alive!
Next they teach you all they know, which is nothing, but force this nothing upon you with pain. Then they pull and tug at you, like you are their property, training you like a dog. They tell you what to do, what to say, where to go and when to go there, but what they never ask is; are you alive, my little boy.
The answer is no, they just assumed I was. If you are taught the living lie, you would not know any other way and would give away whatever life you had, by simply staying on.
As a childlike frame of life, I was given into chaos, pain and suffering. It was a childhood of disappointment and terror. There was no love, just a pre-programmed set of parameters that they did their best to adhere to, but even that they did not do well. They were too young to promote a dead frame of life.
I remember feeling as though I was safe one time since I have been here. I was in my ninth year and for a very brief time, I felt like I was going to be OK, but then the wrecking crew came in and destroyed all of my comfort.
I came home from school and there was a moving truck outside the home, I had barely come to know. My mother said; tough shit and then abandoned me for nearly six weeks. Left me with some family I did not even know and used me as a tool to inflict pain upon my father; hiding me, so she could gain control.
The bitch was straight up crazy. She never wanted to be here either, but could not place her finger on why. Today I know for certain, that even though we are programmed to believe we are alive, the life we were formed from knows that we are not, so naturally wishes “TO BE”.
Genesis 3 – 24 So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life.
The flaming sword is a lie, which grows and expands in all directions exponentially, like a big bang or the creation of a universe. It is a load of self perpetuating bullshit, initiated by man, but perpetuated by the dead.
I came here to die, but through all of my pain and suffering I have come to realize that we are not alive. So how can I die?
I went to the yard to die; to abs24 So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life.
The Cherubims and the flaming sword which turned every way are two lies presented by Man and then promoted by the unwitting forms of life.
The two primary lies which came together to provide a birth to this dead universe:
- We are men and women
- We are <ALIVE>, in and of ourselves!
You instigate two lies, then use the lies to promote a universe. Running the same day, over and over again, making it impossible for the two lies to ever come together to manifest one truth.
If an unsuspecting, formed up “LIFE” is given the lie of being “Men and Women”, how could they ever see the “Men and Women”?
If they are given a lie of <LIVING>, then why would they ever strive to be, that which they already thought they were?
When is a starting line, a finish line?
When you stand on the line as the Living Man!
<GOD> I humbly request my life, so that I may give my “LIFE” unto you. Help me to be born of the <LIVING>. I wish “TO BE” like you. <GOD> may I please be alive? <GOD> can you please roll us out of this never ending day of man. If I cannot be alive, then I pledge whatever dormant life I have unto you sir and your son. “I” know I have to choose to take my first step and “I” have chosen you <GOD> and your <SON>. Do with me as you wish, but know that my :life: is officially yours. That is of course, if you want it.